Trust me, I might look like I'm happy but I'm actually hurting

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Trust me, I might look like I'm happy but I'm actually hurting

Yes, yes it's true... Right now I'm hurting... It took a little insult to have me crying.. All the hurt has just built up again and I just burst out in tears at recess today. So this is how it all happened:
I'm in second period (Maths) and I'm sitting next to my guy friend (whom I will not name) and this idiot of a 'cool kid' decides to call out insulting things to me. IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE FUCKING CLASS!!! I tell him to shut up and that he's not funny or cool and he just says 'What a head!'.
What the heck does that even mean??!!?!?!? It's not funny and it's not cool to be insulting.
And at recess I had to do a detention for 'not doing my work'. I finished before the bell rang and the teacher STILL keeps me in. That really got me fuming with anger.So whel I finally got out I sit with my friends and no one asked me if I'm okay. I get and leave to sit alone (because I'm such a loner sometimes) and I put my head phones on and blast I'm Not Okay (I Promise). Then my other guy friend comes and tries to cheer me up. He leaves and the bell rings, them my friend (who is a girl) comes and comforts m, That's when I start to cry. She's a really good friend and she returned the favour because I was there for her. God love her...
I seriously have had enough of this bullying. I've spent almost my whole life (so far) being bullied! And you know what's been keeping me here?
1. My family
2. My 'friends'
3. My faith
4. My Chemical Romance
If any of you Killjoys out there have any advice please I need you help to cheer me up some... And I will return the favour by supporting you when your upset. I will, I promise. Just message me.
Stay safe. Stay beautiful. Keep it ugly.

-Thrill Killer
Keep Running :D