I have no real friends...

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I have no real friends...

I never really had any. Just fakes...
Now I know I probably shouldn't be posting this, but today I can home bawling my eyes out because my 'best friends' are ignoring me and pretending that I don't exist. I have no idea why this has suddenly occured! I'm not sure if someone who hates me has told them lies about me saying bad stuff about them. I do that kind of stuff. I don't bitch about my friends! I'm so cunfused right now, I don't kow what to do!
My mum has been a great help. God bless her... She was there for me and supported me. I love her and my dad and little brother (even though he can anoy the shit outta me LOL!). My music has also helped. MCR of course! I sang the words of the songs I listened to and didn't even care if the nextdoor nabours heard. That helped me a lot too.
I just don't get how people can be so mean and crule. I have practically been bullied my whole school career. I've been stabbed in the back by people who posed to be 'best friends', I've been used, called names, insulted infront of heaps of people and been told to go 'slit my wrists' or 'go die'. Yet still I'm here.
I am here! After all that shit I've been through, people would think that I would be emo or suicidal, but no. I'm not emo or suicidal! Far from it! I still continue to be the happy person I want to be. Everybody deserves to be happy, it's just that some people seek to take that happiness from you. So don't let them take you alive!
We must all be strong and keep on living! I will fight for what I believe in and I will shout out my presence, until I stop breathing.

So that's all for now Killjoy.
Stay safe. Stay beautiful. Keep it ugly.

-Thrill Killer
Keep Running :D