what the hell is wrong wih me???

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what the hell is wrong wih me???

so I've been sick the past couple of days, with tonsillitis. but although I get sick a lot, I get over it quickly too. I still felt like crap today, but I wasn't exactly sick, if you know what I mean. I couldn't talk, and I was dizzy and kept falling into things. my dad just said to me that i'm fine, and that I still have to go to school. he left, and then I tried to get ready, I really did, but then I couldn't, and I broke down crying. I called my mum and she understood and she said I could stay off school today. so I did. I watched the first 3 episodes of star trek next generation, and then I cried and slept. when my dad got back from work, he just started shouting at me, saying I was fine, and that I bunked off because i'm lazy. so I went into my room from the lounge, and then 2 minutes later he walks in, not bothering to knock, and tells me to get changed into more decent clothes, because I have to take the dog out. seen as though I was holding back tears, and was freezing, walking a dog a couple of miles didn't appeal to me coz I was sick and it's raining. so we go on the walk, and my dad just keeps telling me i'm walking too slow, and when I said i'm trying, he just said no you're not. so I shouted at him to leave me alone. all he did was say I was being ridiculous, and then follow me round as I went to go home the opposite way to him. he just never believes me when ever I say anything, and everything is always my fault. I've had enough. my mum isn't back from work yet, so I have nobody to talk to. my mum doesn't really understand either, but she doesn't pretend to. she just comforts me and gets me these natural anti depressant things my uncle used before he died. they don't really work, but she tries. so now I don't know what to do. I feel broken, and that instead of picking the pieces of me up like my mum, my brother and my dad are just smashing them up even more... does anyone know what the hell is wrong with me??
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