I've had enough, fuck them

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I've had enough, fuck them

so it happened again today... I keep getting asked out by popular people, and I know it's a joke, coz they all hate me. I obviously say no because of this, and then they all start laughing and start saying little comments like "oh she thinks she's too good for us" that I'm meant to hear. I'm really insecure about the way I look, because nobody I've ever known on the outernet apart from my friends have ever told me I'm pretty, and on all the "like for looks on facebook I always get okay. and I'm happy with okay. because okay is me, and I'm not trying to be somebody else. It just gets me so mad that it's happened again today. it's the fourth one since I started this school four years ago, and I'm fucking sick of it. they don't mean to be horrible, they just think it's funny, but it's not. to make it worse I got asked out by the boy who sits next to me in science. he's not a "popular" but everybody likes him, because he's like the class clown. I'm a quiet motherfucker in school too, so I get teased a lot about it, and even my friends say that I've gone really dark about everything. I've developed a stammer too when I try to narrate something, and as I've taken drama and we're doing a pantomime, one of my parts is a narrator. I told my friend this and she told me that maybe I just wasn't good enough to have taken drama, and she thinks she's really good, when to be honest, she just says her lines and doesn't stammer, but there's no emotion. I also get interrogated in history by two popuars who sit on my table about everything. like my hair. I get asked stuff like why did you cut it? and then when I say I wanted to they're always just like "well that's not a very good answer, why did you want to cut it?" and then it was about my hair again yesterday, as it's kinda gone reddy purple (it was pink) and I JUST DON'T WANT IT TO HAPPEN IT'S REALLY BUGGING ME I DON'T KNOW!!!! please help me if you read this... thanks x.0

Kindle xoxo