the deeper you go

"the deeper you go, the darker it gets, the more you see. that's the way the rabbit hole works, my friend; so take a deep breath and jump in, cause i think your gonna be down there for awhile..."
^^quote from today; thanks bradley, i feel so much better -_-

apparently im becoming more readable in my emotions and what i show on a daily basis. people are starting to take notice, like teachers and such. getting called up to the office because of it is not my idea of a good thing, far from it. the lady was nice, didnt try digging to deep and stuff, but i want to know who it was now. fuck confidentiality, who has enough curiosity or boredom to go hunting after me? i guess its kinda my fault anyway, it shouldnt show around any of them, ever. but the truth is, life is fucked up right now, honest to glob it is. i had to deal with a very clingy, creepy guy, i have two others who are after me, im over worked, unpaid... you get the idea. and what's worse is some of the same feelings ive had in the past are coming back, with a vengeance. im feeling a little more hostile, a little more out for blood, and a lot more confused. why cant i be normal, sometimes i really hate me... it sucks. i wish i could drown out the world in music and rockstar, i think im going to try to.

what you dont know will definitely hurt you,
-XxannabeexX