ex-boyfreinds lies and more

about a month ago i competly ended a very bad realtionship that had lasted for almost 10 months.
longstory short he competly lied to me fucked me over etc. it was bad. i even changed my phone number because of him (also my dad but thats anotherstory)
but i think the point im trying to get at. is all that time i've wasted with him every kiss every moment every word. was nothing but lies and wasted time. and i wanna say i miss him but who am i trying to fool. but all that wasted time. and how he had abused me. (emotionally, and at times physcally) i wish my family would have made me get rid of him sooner. but i have to learn my self and they only know about half of how bad it was.
so i geuss im not geting to a full point.
but is it normal to be competly emotionally fucked after this. im standing strong dont get me wrong. but just his memory taints my thoughts at night.
and my new boyfreind has the same name as him,,,, (i geuss you can say i move on fast but not really it was just by chance i wasent plaining on geting into antoher relation ship untill after i move)
.... i dunno
bye