Help me!

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Help me!

Last night , I told a guy, One of friends. I'd say best friend but I'm afraid to because of his girlfriend but , I told him a reall deep personal secret that I have never told anyone else ever. It's not usually the thing you spread around and it's kinda embarrassing but I don't know, we were talking and the question just came up! I always thought the first person I would've told or would've found out would be one of my girl best friends. Not him. Not a guy. But it was him. And I would trust him with my life! But every time I think about what I shared with him, I cant help imagine him going around and telling everyone. But then I remember that he's him! Not one of the other retard guys I know. He's just him. And even if he did share it , I'd have something to say about him. But I'm too fragile and caring about my friends to ewe make someone feel that way.
I don't know what to do.
I told his girlfriend the same thing but AFTER I told him because she's my best friend and we were talking about the same thing but I made her cry.
I made... My best friend.... Cry...
She says she doesn't know why she was crying but I know. I know why. And I can't get past that.
She can't be mad at me though. It's not my fault. I'm not even sure of it yet. It's nothing! I know it is!
Why is it always me?
I don't know anymore.

-Ells xx