I'm a mess.

Didn't get much sleep last night... had a moment of weakness, stupidity, angst call it what you want. Yes I ended up hurting myself. And I told the only one that was online at msn about it, a guy that is head over heels in love with me... and he came over to my place to what he called it calm me down (it wasnt needed, i was fucking calm...). We walked outside for a while then we went to hos place to sleep becuase I didn't want to be alone. I spend last night basically crying in his arms.... When did I become such a mess? Why am I a fucking mess?