Ok, so I'm really bored so I'm gonna start talking about whatever pops into my head. My boyfriend, Gerard, bought me this really cool ring a few weeks ago, and I fucking love it! It's opal. I love him. And how awesome is it that his name is Gerard? Well, it's not his real name... His real name is Jerry, but his stage name is Gerard. I really need to post more fan fics soon! I have them written out, but I haven't put it in my iPad yet. I really hate auto correct. It's always changing fics into FICA and I don't know what the hell that is. Yesterday I was playing truth or dare and my friend asked me if I would rather date my Gerard or Gerard Way and I'm like "aw! You bitch, why'd you have to chose such a hard damn question?" it's really not that hard, I would go Gerard way, but, it's just hard because, like, I don't want to do that to Gerard and he's loved me and stayed faithful and all that, so it was annoying. But seriously, Gerard way is awesome! I love him so much its frightens some people, but I don't care!
Oh, onto a more serious thing, I think I've officially slipped. Usually, I just think about "I want to kill my self!" but I've never said " I'm going to kill myself" but yesterday I did. I was thinking. It would be great not to have to worry about anything anymore. I wouldn't need to think about school and friends betraying me and all that shit. I could just... die...
But I got over it. I'm not gonna kill myself, but I'm just worried I might now. I had a fight with my mom yesterday and then she started crying and that usually gets me all emotional, but yesterday, I felt nothing. It's as if I'd taken the BL/ind pills and lost all emotion. It was weird. But I've officially lost it! Go me! Bleh
Keep Running! (ironic, isn't it?)
Vine Spider
