Tell Me Something

Why...Why do I even bother?
My Dad seems to think everything I say contains attitude and whenever we have an argument he always says to me 'it's easier to be nice than it is to be mean. You have to make an effort to be mean'. But that's not true for me! I don't understand why. But I want to know why. Why am I just so...Horrible?
It's unfair to ask all of you that, you can't tell me and you'll feel guilty. Or at least some of you will, those who don't will be chuffed that you disproved my point. I just want...I need to know why because it doesn't feel right. It makes me feel just...Not right. I think I need a therapist. There's so many things that make me disturbed, so many things I can hide...But not all of them. I can't hide everything.

~Vampire

Please help me.