he isn't here and i'm sick

He's gone...
He mets someone there, he tought me some pictures of her by mail , she is so pretty
My dad told me "you need to go out"but he can't understand, perhaps yes , only if I explain him all but...maybe he'll bother me if he knows. My dad knows him, and he told me "he is in love with you and you're in love with him" and he begans to laugh :(
I'm in love with him, and he can't undesrand how much he means to me.
He is with her now I know.... that makes me feel sick and insane. I want to get up of this bed and go out with my friends but I can't, maybe if I try but I don't want to try anything today
I can't wait to see him realy, and that day He'll turn to other part and push me away it's always the same,and later I'll go away and He 'll say to me "why you don't talk to me today? and I 'll say oh I had a lot of things and go out of school. Belive me i'ts always the same when he come back.
I can't understand him at all, first he want to be with me and later he just ignore me. I did the same in the past, because always that I begin to feel something I try to set them apart, thats just me and he know.
I know some day I'll undestand