it can't last forefer.

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it can't last forefer.

i dunno i was happy a week or so ago. also i got my first tattoo. it means a lot to me and i'm really happy with it. :) it's a Green day reference to my favourite song of theirs :) But yeah i felt really sad earlier, like really sad, and i decided to go get drunk on my own in my room which maybe wasn't the best idea 'cause now i feel really really really sad and drunk and i can't feel my hands. but yeah i'm just listening to frank turner and i just want to cry and i dunno why i'm so upset. i speant the weekend with one of my best frends and it was amazing, but now i'm super upset and i have college tomorrow, and i just ugh. it's only midnight and i never get to sleep until fucking 4am and i'm tempted to have some of my co-codamol ccause it makes me relaxed and tired and i shouldn't be drinking, i've been drinking for the past 4 days and i should stop but ican't. i got really drunk in a hotel room 250 miles from home the other day, ordered hot chocolaate too the room and was barely able to stand when it arrived, i called the hot chocolate guy phillip and it turned out thaat was his name!!! whtf? but yeah, i poured baileys into my hot chocolate and i was already fucked. i just feell asleep, i don't remember much. but yeah ad the night before it was jack daniels all night, the night before that i got drunk 'caus i was scared of the next two nights and now here i am and fucking heellll. i just wanna cry. i mihgt finish my drawing i was gonna paint over it but i got drunk and i don't trust myself with paint on it. i d'nt wanna ruin it it's on of the best iv'e done. but mydad said it looks liked something he's seen lots before and i gave up and got drunk. fuck and my best friends gone to fucking jamaca for the week, my otehr best friend won't talk to me and my other friends gone to bed :( i shouldn't drink alone i just get sad i'm sorry, like i had a message last time suggting other things instead of getting wasted bit i can't help it i'm fucking weak. :(sorry.