I was at a festival this weekend, and the whole thing is like one big blur, I remember arriving on the Friday, and I'd been drinking since 9am that morning, but I was really annoyed 'cause I couldn't get drunk, like, I was drinking until 11pm, and was barely tipsy. -.-" But yeah, I saw Young Guns, Subsource and Modestep on the Friday, and then on the Saturday I got out of my tent, and everyone was feeling tired and groggy, 'cause it was like 7:30am, and at about 8:30 my friend offered me this pill thing, and I was like "What is it?" And he was like "Oh it's a living pill, it'll wake you up, honest" So I took it and barely felt any difference, but later that day I saw some being sold in this tent, so I bought a pack of 24, 'cause I was still really tired, and I took two, and as well as that I bought some Jagerbombs, and drank loads of cider, and I didn't think I'd get drunk, but I did, and then I continued drinking, and then wondered off, and bumped into these people who were also drinking and stuff, and they kinda took me under their wing, and I don't really remember much, it's kinda fuzzy...I remember being asked if I smoked, and I was like "No..." And they were like "Great" And shoved something in my mouth, like I thought it was a cigarette or something, but I'm not even sure, anyway, I inhaled it, and yeah, again everything's all fuzzy...I dunno, I remember talking to this guy...I can't remember who, but he was like "Jesus Christ, what have you taken?!" And I was like "What do you mean, all I've had is booze?" And he was like "Nah mate, your eyes are fucking bloodshot! What are you on?" And I was like "What do you mean?" And he was like "Have you smoked anything?" And I was like "I dunno...I think so, I can't remember..." And he was like "Haha, you're so fuckin' high mate!" And just patted me on the back and walked off. Anyway, then there's another bit that I can't remember, I don't know what happened after that...I remember waking up in my tent and thinking the roof of my tent was right in my face, and I freaked out and did some weird ninja flop thing, and then realised it wasn't, and just lay back on the floor staring at the ceiling, and then decided I was tired, so I took two more of the pills that I'd bought off that person, and headed out to find people. Again, more memory loss, no idea what happened. Next thing I remember is standing waiting for Deaf Havana's set, MCR was playing on the overhead speakers, and I saw Kids In Glass Houses at a signing tent, so I went to say hi, and got a picture, and they signed my train ticket. Then I remember watching Deaf Havana and Kids In Glass Houses play, and it was amazing, like, one of the best shows ever! And then after that I think we went back to the tents...I think at some point my friends wanted to go to the dance tent...I hate dancing, but I'd just taken two more pill things and was all up and ready for it, and then we got to the dance tent, and outside it was pitch black, but inside there was music so loud your organs vibrated, and flashing lights that led to one hell of a trip. 'Cause I was standing inside the tent, and time seemed to be going uber slow, I must have taken at least 6 to 8 more pills in the space of about 10 minutes, and at the time I felt great, until the mud on the wall started looking like blood splatters, and every time a strobe light flashed I freaked out, 'cause I thought people's skulls were popping out of their faces. We stayed in there for ages as well, and I was just there mildly panicking. Anyway, then we eventually left the dance tent and went back to our tents, and again it's like a blank spot. I remember just collapsing in my tent and lying there, feeling my heartbeat throughout entire body, like, it felt like a hammer against my chest, and I was freezing cold, and felt sick, and when I tried to get up my head just weighed a ton, and I fell back down. I don't know how long I was there for, but I remember being woken up 'cause my friends wanted to go to another dance tent, and I agreed, put my pack of pills in my pocket and headed out, but I felt like shit, and we got to this other dance tent, and the lights here actually made me feel sick, it was the weirdest experience ever, there was a UV light, and I could see my friends teeth and the whites of their eyes turn purple every time it flashed, and the strobe lights made everything look like it was in slow motion, and there were people everywhere, and it was the most terrifying experience of my life, plus I didn't feel the want to do anything at all, I just wanted to fall on the floor and die, I took two more pills while in there, but they didn't have any effect, or if they did, I didn't notice it, anyway, we left there about 3am, I can't remember what I did for the next two hours, but I got to sleep about 5am. Oh, and I remember some people came up to us and offered us MDMA, but we declined...Secretly I wanted to try it, but I think that was just my already intoxicated brain telling me that...Now that I'm sober I have no will to go near drugs. They terrify me, and I honestly wouldn't have done what I had if I hadn't been drinking. It's like the drinking escalated into drug taking while I was at this festival thing. Plus it's weird, 'cause there's just these gaps in my memory where I have no clue where I was or what I was doing...But yeah, NOT doing that again...I'll still drink, but the drug stuff freaks me out...Plus I can still remember the trippy thing in the dance tent, when I thought peoples skulls were popping out their faces, it's truly creepy. Anyway, I'll shut up now and let you guys rip me apart for being an idiot...So yeah, I'm going to another festival next month, it's much bigger than this one was, but I'm looking forward to it, kinda scared though.
Anywho. I just wanted to write this all out, it's kinda helping me remember that day/night/weekend.
But yeah, sorry, I've been stupid. I'll go now.
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