Damned if I do ya, damned if I don't...

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Damned if I do ya, damned if I don't...

My boyfriend and I had a serious talk this evening, and we both agreed that our relationship was going nowhere, we were sitting at the train station with about 5 minutes until my train came, and the way he was talking it sounded like he was breaking up with me. I wasn't surprised, which sounds harsh, but honestly we were going nowhere...Anyway, he seemed really upset, he said he didn't want to break up with me, but he saw no other way, and I suggested we take a break for a while, see how things go then? But he just said "No, that won't ever work." I could tell he was upset, and I was expecting us to go our separate ways, he said when the train arrives we can either say goodbye with a kiss and a 'I love you' or a hug and a 'See you around.' I think we were both expecting the latter, and in a way (Not to sound harsh) I was almost wanting the latter, it's not that I don't love him, but I need some space, just for a little while. Anyway, the train arrived and I stepped on and turned to face him, not really knowing what to expect, but he grabbed me and kissed me really fucking hard, and then said "We can try and make this work a little longer." And with that said "Love you..." As the train left. I said "Love you too" But I was kinda taken aback by the sudden kiss when I was so certain he was going to break up with me. I'm happy to give this relationship another try, but I'm worried that the longer we go, the more stressful it'll be, and the harder it'll be to say goodbye if and when the time comes. Basically, I'm damned if I do ya, I'm damned if I don't.
Any help Killjoys? I'm seeing him again Friday, what should I say? I don't know what to do. :/
Thanksies! ♥