COFFEE...but I still have to buy cigarettes.

I'm on my second cup of coffee today :].
& I was on hold with my school for like 20 min before I could reschedule my placement testing -_-.
But anyways, I remember at the Green Day concert, they were pulling people on stage during songs.
& I was so envious of all those people.

I screamed & waved my arms around like a madman but I didn't get picked :[
I mean, I was pretty close to the stage, but I guess not close enough..

My dream is to sing on stage, I would get such a rush that alcohol or self harm could not even compare too [I don't cut anymore & I cut back on drinking, I'm just comparing.]
That is my dream career...if onlyyyy.