Uhh...kill me...i broke a promise to the only girl i cared for and trusted....

so my girl friend broke up with....

wait thats not the wrost part let me tell hwy she broke up with me...she basiclly ent me this really personal message...that she trusted me with not to tell anyone...but see i didnt know this bnecause im freaking retarded...so when peolpe asked me what happened between me and tessa i show them this message not knowing it would hurt anyone because i dont think when im depressed ( so i never think really ).....so i gets tot eh pion t where ive shown a few people then whe i show my friends ryann and jordan and lynsey and katie ( who happens to be an ex girl friend) they lash out and tell me how i fucked up and i shouldnt have sent this to anyone or shown anyone...so they make me add tessa to the group message and and when she gets on for me to apolagize to her she sees everything because im not home and i come home to messages that just bombard my whole life and state of mind is crushed...my friends go on one more rampage on how i F&%ked up and then they leave me broken like a dog in a street...im lost and heartbroken because i kno what i did was wrong and ive accepted it but i have no forgivness even though im not expecting any...i dont expect any empathy at all...i ned help but i sdont deserve it...i broke the trust of a girl who only trustedme and was already hurt alot...i screwed up....help...