I had a minor revelation.

Today whilst in the car my sister and my mum were having a conversation which I wasn't really listening to, so I don't really know what they were talking about, and when I chose to listen in I heard my mum say 'You know Hannah (my sister), we can't all be special'.
As I put my Ipod headphones on and as their conversation faded away to the sound of MCR I had a revelation.
I only have one life. One life to live in and I never get to do it again. This is the only chance I ever have to do anything, and then I'm gone. And my life might be normal. And my life might be mediocre. And I might never get to be special or amazing, or make an impact on the world or anyone's life or ANYTHING. Once I'm gone I will eventually be forgotten.
So today I made a promise to myself. As of today I will do AT LEAST one, special, amazing thing. Whether it be making a piece of art, blogging, writing a poem, making someone remember that they are amazing and beautiful. ANYTHING.
Because I don't want to fit into the crowd of people who lived their lives just existing.