my goodness.

Have any of you killjoys had a hard childhood? i know i did.
My whole life has been a secret. Ive put up a big wall for many years.
Ever feel so alone and in pain you cut yourself. well that was a sign i needed help.
I went to my school counselor and we are working together to tell my parents about how i felt about everything thats happened.
Im so terrified that the secrets ive been holding in so long will break up my whole family.

Ever had someone in your family that abused you. well i hope you didnt.
The pain is still to much to bear and i just have to accept it.
The only thing that runs through my mind is that my counselor said im a victim and ive never been able to mourn my childhood.
and shes right.

The walls are breaking, and i cant hold it up much longer.