Lovely depression

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Lovely depression

Well, it's back. I feel like a burden and a pathetic failure to my family and friends. I had to do some housework today and also had to stop periodically from frequent migraines. Enter my dad at around 6:30 pm. He proceeds to tell me how "absolutely nothing" was done today and that I need to "step it up" by tomorrow or I'm out of here. That seems like a fucking fantastic solution to my existence: just fucking get me out of your life! I feel like a failure because what I did do was overpowered by what I didn't do. It's bullshit. But it still hurts that my own dad would want me out of his hair, life even, because I didn't finish something as he was walking through the damn door. I'm not super humanly fast, the dishes I JUST washed aren't going to be dried and put away in ten seconds.
I'm back to the thoughts of just becoming a shut-in for the remainder if my life. It doesn't matter, right? I'm perfectly content being lonely. Less bullshit and drama from other people that I can't ever please.
Rant: over.
I'm just done with this. Only 2 more months before college.