WTF is Wrong with Me?

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WTF is Wrong with Me?

wow, i haven't posted in a while. but i need help. i hate to be such a downer, but i feel like i'm falling apart inside. don't judge me when i tell you this, but,i just finished a war in my head with the Voice. i'm supriesed i won.It was me against him and he had failure, doubt, sadness, and memories on his side, while i had me and MCR. He killed my only ally, the Nice Voice, and he started to convince me that MCR just gave me false promises. Every time he won a battle, infulenced me or just beat me, i would draw stitches on my hands and arms. every time i won, i would draw a heart. i have 7 hearts and about 70 stitches. i don't know if you understand what that means, but it's not good. I won because my best friend Alexis gave me a hug, (and didn't try to hurt me) and MCR didn't tell me false promises, but gave me hope. So, i ended up throwing him into a room locked behind a steel door and he hasn't come out since. but i'm still not happy. He influenced me too much and altered my thinking. I hate myself and wish i was never born. i hate everything about me. i don't want to live, but it's not like i want to die either. everyday i fake my happiness but inside, i'm drowning in a black sea and there's no one to save me. So, i decided that i'm going to try to tell the two people i trust the most. Maybe having them know what's going on with me may help. i don't know how, but maybe.

~~a slowly falling apart Splash Bubblez out~~