killjoys

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killjoys

Let's face it.
It has been six months and we are still crying. I almost ran away when MCRofficial on Twitter became unverified. I can't do that.
I need my hero's laughs and music... I need them.
I miss it so.much.
I'll never get the chills of hearing an MCR song for the first time again.
Never ever..
But through all of this, I have learned an important lesson.

The things of the life we have come to know won't be here someday.
Nothing we have now will be the same ten years from now. Things will change and we will have to grow up whether we want to or not. It's painful to think about. It hurts me because I will never see a few friends. I will never see four guys I consider my parents to some level in concert. My whole life has been sheltered... I can't do this I can't do that. When I heard the news in March, I started crying and was depressed for weeks. Even now, I am trying to heal. It hurts that I am so used to everything that one group of people not hanging out all the time send me into a frenzy. I stopped listening to music the other day. I LOVE my music. You can't tear me away from it. For a day, I listened, I watched, I explored. And I learned. We are going to be ok.
Yes, a fan base blew up. Yes, killjoys broke down in sobs, some ended everything. And it hurts.
It all hurts.
I can't believe I am saying all.of this... But yet, here I am, typing away.
The video for Na Na Na made me realize something. It made me realize that people we love will die. Just like they all died so will things and people we love vanish.
And that is painful. Painful and true.
We are all Grace Jeanette. We all will survive even if our heroes don't.
We can and we will.