This is weird but...

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This is weird but...

I don't know why but I just feel like crying. I've felt like that ever since this morning when I turned on my iPod and listened to some MCR. It wasn't even a sad song but I just u dont know need a hug or something. I hate feeling like this and I've tried texting several people but they are all spending time with family. I just feel like I did something that let the band down. I just feel like a horrible person now and I don't know what to do. All I've been doing for a while is finding things wrong with me. Like well I'm not so pretty, I'm kinda chubby, I'm too skinny, I have no friends, no one cares about me, I have no life, I'm lazy, I cant draw, I can't sing, I'm never gonna make it anywhere. Those thoughts have been going through my mind and I want to give in. I know what depression is and I've gone through it before but I just don't even know anymore. I mess up everything I'm sorry if anyone reads this for messing up the whole nice happiness of the holidays.