Well, I found out something today...

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Well, I found out something today...

I found out that I have a MAJOR fear of gymnastic stuff. The test for PE is three of any moves that she teaches us. We were supposed to practice our forward rolls and backward rolls. I've never been very good at gymnastic thingamabobs, so at first, I was excited to do them... then, we actually had to do them, and I freaked out.

I went into the starting position of a forward roll: hands and knees. I placed my forehead on the mat. I stayed in that position for who knows how long before I actually attempted to do the roll. I started straight and ended up rolling over one shoulder onto my right.

All my friends could do it. Just to let you know, some of my friends aren't exactly small... Let's just say, "Big man don't fold that way!" and they still did it. I was just watching, and I could feel my eyes watering. I told my friends that if they wanted to make me cry, to make me to the roll. They were like, "Okay then. Cry, but do the roll. If you don't, you will get a 0 for the day." I tried to gather up my courage to do it, but it ended badly. I told them, "I'm going to burst into tears if I try," with a shaky voice. They didn't believe me and continued talking about it and practicing. Fear was coursing through my body so badly.

When the teacher came, I explained that I couldn't do any of it. She kinda just let it slide because I had a perfect score in her class. The moment she steps away, the fear is gone. It's replaced with tears exploding from my eyes. I didn't feel scared, but I was crying, so I guess I was in shock. At least, from my knowledge I was in shock. I was confused on why I was crying, so I started laughing... It ended up sounding like, "Ha wah wahawahahwa ha!" It was really weird. My friends gave me hugs and told me to get it together.

I myself was trying to hold back the tears because I didn't feel scared or sad, but the tears kept coming, so I guess I was pretty terrified. (Especially seeing that I hardly EVER cry... even more so in public/at school.) At one point, I couldn't even breathe! I just had so much anxiety. I don't know if it was a panic attack or what, but that's never happened to me soo...

What do you guys think? Has this ever happened to you? What's your worst fear?

~Singer Not a Dancer~