I will not stop living

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I will not stop living

I had fallen in love with My Chemical Romance for only a year. I was either too young or simply not interested at first, but my older brother was the one to show me the music video for "Welcome To The Black Parade." This is barely my freshman year of high school, and the first thing I was looking for was some stability. I felt like a freak walking through the halls, because I started to get nightmares half way through the fall, and was being deprived of my sleep. Constantly tired, and it was just horrifying. I had purchased the clean version of the album because it was in the bargain bin, and quite a find it was. A friend of mine, named Sean, suggested that I play background music to distract my mind. He had went through something similar, so I was looking to him for guidance. The dreams lasted for about a month straight, but soon stopped. The lyrics became embedded in the walls of my heart and will forever remain there. I still have to take some stuff from my parents this time, because they think I'm a rebel for liking this kind of music, though I couldn't be more grateful. There's this one boy, who's named Tommy, who dyed his hair red and even got a jacket to match Party Poison. :3 I have found safety in the arms of my fellow Killjoys, our little group stretches from Illinois, to California, and one or two in Colorado. Amazing the feats that the band's music has performed. Not to mention some in the UK, which is pretty exceptional as well. I got my first kiss to your music, the first band that I truly cared about. Now, upon hearing the news, my Killjoys texted me saying: "Oh my God, MCR broke up." So now what? Tommy responded with "We keep on living." Due to my fangirl-ism, I have gotten to know: Tommy, Sean, Briana, Erin, Maria, Allen, Alec, Adrian,Zoe, Jade, and the list goes on. I have been branded with being "emo" at school for being a fan, a title that I still can't shake. It's thanks to your music that caused me to reconsider my life, and not end it. To My Chem, if you're reading, thank you. For helping me find a place in my heart where I know I can belong. For bringing some color into my life, for helping me conquer some hard times in my life, walking through hell with a grin on my face. Ryb blaster in hand, walking in the dark. Knife strapped to my leg. Better Living hasn't destroyed me just yet. I have nothing to prove to anyone, no tears left to cry. I am not going down without a fight, and with an emptiness in my soul. We are nothing more but Teenagers, but that doesn't make us anything less but people. Passion blazing in our hearts and a fire in our souls. No one can take that away from us, and the only thing that can be taken away is our lives. I don't stand alone, and from now on, I never will. My Killjoy name is Valence Heart, and I couldn't be more proud of that title. I pour my very blood into everything I write and say. And I mean every word of it. I'm not much of a religious Killjoy, but God bless you. For sticking together for so long, we love you. You guys haven't left us, so we won't leave you. The memory will forever stay alive. And on behalf of all the Killjoys in Illinois, we wish you the best of luck, and take care. With love and a heavy heart, this is Valence Heart, signing off on another adventure.