Why me?

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Why me?

I have this friend, who lives in another country. And he is one of my best friends, and we used to talk like every-single-day since we meet. Two days before my birthday (December 29) we talked and he was kind of pissed (in a funny, friendly way) because I didn't tell him my birthday was on 29. Everything was okay.
The next day we didn't talk. The day of my birthday we didn't talk, the day after my birthday we didn't talk... and so on till New Year's. We have different time zones, It was something like 12:30 where I was and 5:30 where he was. He said he wanted to kill himself... I almost died when he said that!! I talked to him till 3 or 4 (my time zone) till I started to fall asleep, we had to say good bye and stuff.
I was really worried, he said things I can't even... he lives in another country, and I'm earning money to visit him. He said he's not worth the trip, he started to tell me that I should not visit him because It's a lot of money and stuff, HE LITERALLY SAVED MY LIFE, AND HE THINKS HE'S NOT WORTH THE TRIP!
After that we didn't talk till yesterday. I couldn't sleep fine for two days, only had like 4 hrs. of sleep, with my phone on my chest (I didn't know that could cause cancer till yesterday) waiting for him to message me. Yesterday I could tell he wasn't okay, and I need him, I don't want him to do anything stupid like suicide. I don't know what to do, he doesn't chat anymore, doesn't post anything and I'm here on the other side of the freaking world and I can't do ANYTHING about it.

On the other hand, I'm glad to say I'm getting fit :2 my pants fall down hehe