Feeling/Heavy

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Feeling/Heavy

I don't know why but my heart feels heavy that it might drop onto my stomach. Everytime I move, I can feel my heart hanging and swing a little. It's not some kind of disease or something, I swear.
Seriously, what is this negative feeling? Not only that, it happens when I'm on this site. Seriously, I don't know why. Am I feeling alone? Or maybe I just need attention? Maybe that's why I write this piece of shit? Maybe that's why I wrote those stupid blogs lately? I'm an internet...what's a guy version of whore?
Come on, dammit! I'm a fucking man for crying out loud! I can't let this feeling get into me. No way I'm gonna be the same old me again.
Come on, man. I should be one of the family's hopes. I should be caring and comfort those in sadness and despair. My feeling isn't important now. My feeling isn't important now. My feeling isn't important now.
Yes, I can remember that favourite song from MCR....

If there's a place that I could be, then I'll be another memory
Can I be the only hope for you? Because you're the only hope for me.
And if we can't find where we belong, we'll have to make it on our own,
Face all the pain and take it on, because the only hope for me is you alone.

Okay, I think I feel better now. I never thought writing things down would make my heart feels light again. If you're reading this, can I be the only hope for you? Or at least, one of your hopes?