And so my grandpa died

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And so my grandpa died

Branko Klenkovski 25.9.1946-12.7.2013
He died on Friday.He battled with cancer for about a month.One awesome man he was.And a legendary soccer player.
I'm okay.I'm actually pretty awesome feeling.I cried for a total of 5 minutes,and that's for Friday and Saturday.But,I'm okay.He wasn't the kind of man who would be such a downer.He was so funny and happy.He cracked jokes till the end.On his last day,I laid in bed next to him.We didn't talk ,we were just laying there.And I knew that it will be the last time I see him.I just did.Later that night,and around 1:30 a.m.,me and my older brother were the only ones awake.And the phone rang.Can you imagine my face while I was picking up the phone in that time?I've watched just enough horror movies to know that that can't be anything good.I was expeting a phyco maniac killer to be on the phone,but,nah,it was grandma.She said that grandpa wasn't feeling well and that he wanted to talk to my dad (he's a vet).I woke my parents up and gave the phone to mom.And then I went to sleep.In the morning,when I woke up,I could swear that I've heard mom say:"My Dad died." And so I got out of my room and the same second my mom fell into my arms and started crying "My dad died!!!" My older brother cried,mom cried,my lil brother was super confused and I was just sitting there.It was only when my best friend came over that tears started rolling down my face.
He was so humble and fun to be around.I will post another blog just filled with memories of him.Then you'll see what I mean.All in all,I didn't feel like it was fit to start crying and making drama and shit.I hate it when people whine about it.It's fucking pathetic.He died, not you.And,yes,you'll never see him again,but think about all the good stuff he left you and the rad times you spent with him.You won't get anything out of whining about how you want him back,how it's not fair...Yes,it's so unfair.He was an awesome man and he didn't deserve to die at this age.But that's life.It's not fair.It's not all pretty flowers and shiny diamonds.Suck it up.You haven't got time to whine.Now,don't think that I'm a disgrace to My Chem or that I'm a heartless robot bitch-face.I loved him.I loved him very much.But I know that he wouldn't want for me to be all sad and depressed.He wants to be proud of me and wants me to be happy.And that's exactly what I'm going to do.And you can take these last 3 sentences and use them when talking about the My Chem break up.They want us to be happy and strong and fearless.And that's what we should do.
I managed to laugh at the funeral.I was supposed to kiss the cascet,as a final good bye.I managed to hit my head against it.xDI was trying really hard not to burst out laughing. I didn't have time to cry or something,I was busy with comforting my 2 cousins Christina and Tiana.They were really fucked up.Though they spent a lot more time with him so that's understandable.So,in the end,my beloved ones,be strong,be happy,be proud,be loud,don't be afraid and live on.Live on for the ones that now ended their fight.Keep your head up high and your smile wide.Be strong.<333