I'm trying but you keep pushing me down...

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I'm trying but you keep pushing me down...

My horse is being a bitch. He bit me today. He's always been nippy but he's only ever really bitten me once before and that was because I had a treat. And today he drew blood. It's not bad but my finger is pretty sore and that's not all this damn horse did.
He also ran from me in the pasture. He wouldn't let me get on him to ride until I lunged him and he tried to trample me.
I swear to God I have had so many problems with him. It's like a never ending battle. I accomplish one thing with him and he develops another problem. Or I'm doing good with him and he does something and ruins it.
Last time I cantered him he fell and I haven't cantered since. Last time I trotted him he spooked and I nearly fell off and then he started cantering and wouldn't stop and I flashed back to last time he cantered.
I honestly don't know what to do with this horse. I felt like I was making a lot of progress this week but today he ruined all that. I mean I don't know why. It was a little windy but he's been in wind before. I guess it could just be that spring is coming but goddammit he is being a brat.
And then my dad tells me about someone who's horse threw her and she ended up selling him and never riding again because I was complaining about Rebel being a brat.
Like Thanks Dad, nice to know you have so much confidence in me. I mean I realize I haven't been making much progress lately but I'm trying.
My dad sucks. I feel like he wants me to be perfect. I mean I don't ride when Rebel is being a brat.Or at least I don't ride long because I don't want Rebel to be a brat. I don't want to deal with it. Then my dad complains about it. I mean sorry I'm not gonna jump on a 12,000 pound horse who isn't fully trained when he's acting up. I don't have a death wish.
And Rebel isn't a bad horse. If he was better trained I wouldn't have a problem but he isn't and he's just a baby so he acts up but at the same time he's huge. He's 16.3 hands high and he weighs well over 12,000 pounds. And if I were to just jump on him when he's acting up would end up in me getting hurt and then I couldn't ride at all.
I hate when my dad takes me to the barn because he's so critical. Like I'm sorry are you gonna jump on a horse that's way bigger than average when he's acting up? No? Then you have no right to complain when I don't.
Geez this started as a rant about my horse being a brat today and turned into me complaining about my dad.

~NightHawk