I Will be O.K.

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I Will be O.K.

I have been contemplating my feelings all day about MCR ending. I do not think that breaking up or quitting are terms that really do it justice. They will be forever friends and they are not 'quitting' per-say. I think that they will make music again, someday. I can totally understand why they are stopping though. They are married, have kids; they have more now. Jeez, especially since Frank has twins. They should be there for them. What I can and will take away from the last 12 years, 10 ish of which I knew they existed, is how I will live. I am here today because of them. Suicide and depression and self-injury ruled my life for a while. I take away from them not just kick-ass music and the mentality of not letting others screw with me, but I also took away how to try to be happy. I took away that it is O.K. and acceptable to be sad when shit happens, but I should not let that control my entire life. I can live for my friend that died, I can do my best to struggle through my disease because at least I am living. I am alive. I will carry on and all that. I am thankful and grateful that they cared enough to touch screwed up kids like me. I will struggle with my self-injury addiction, but that is life. With or without MCR I will struggle with that everyday. For me, they did what I needed them to do.