loner amongst my friends >.<

so today my god loving best friend told me, very nervously,that she likes a guy who has liked her for a long time :] i was all excited n crap but i realized that if they get together,which i want to happen cuz she deserves it!, but i will basically be the pathetic loser alone at lunch. there is a group of us who are besties. my freind lisa has a bf,nataly has a bf outside of skool,my god loving friend will probably soon hav a bf,n my friend denise is chasing after some chick. n so u hav me,the pathetic one, who is still in love w/ sum1 who A: isnt even in h.s anymore and B: doesnt wanna b in a relationship with a girl cuz she knows she will get married w/ a dude. i can see myself at lunch already just roaming around n seeing all my bestfriends w/ their bfs n me looking like the sad/pathetic dyke :/ all the dudes at my school r kinda icky n douchebaggish n the chicks all r fake bi/les or insanely immature n wanna do drugs T.T i really feel like punching a kitty ir even myself in the face. ugh cant i just sleep forever??