Why?

I sit here and i think about how grateful I am to be alive but the next second i'm planning. Depression sucks the life and fun out of everything and it blows! I watched the movie toast and it makes me think i want to be trans so i can be gay but....isn't that a double negative? It would be so much easier if i were a guy. I'd be able to date the girl i like...maybe my older sister wouldn't hate me. But the thing is...I know i'm not trans so...why? Whatever just have a happy Thanksgiving.

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