once upon a...you know the story

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once upon a...you know the story

Dear Everyone,
I am a terrible person. I am such a terrible terrible person. I have an almost girlfriend, yet i almost want to be back with my ex because for someone reason, anyone i know. cannot express affection other than a smile but what do smiles do when thats all you get? I feel like a slut for wanting to be back with him, but i cant change that fact and it drives me insane.
A few nights ago i had a dream that i went down a rabbit hole with my almost girlfriend (m1 for everyone who gives a damn) and she got drunk and tried to kiss me, but then i saw my ex over her shoulder and ran away from everyone. i think it was meaning that my past was fucking my present but whatever. i just want to be ok and sane and pass but whatever. no one except you strangers knows this. so yeah, um...help me? I'm sick of feeling like a slut and i am two steps away from commiting myself in the hospital cuz im losing everything my program taught me...

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