Friends of friends... Of friends

Here is whats going on, With me anyway... My friend Hope *no last name mention* Made me lose a GREAT FRIEND! She jokes about our friend that ive lost and I cried over it I want to have my friend back and its not fair Im wanting to slice my throat open!!! (not really just termmmms) But I cant... I dont have half the person I had a month ago... And It hurts No one can see the tears I cry.... I miss you Emily..