love, i hate you.

Why is love so painful? why is the first crush you have on someone always the worst. im sure it was the only one. he's the only one i will ever love like this, and the feeling is never going to leave my aching heart. forever this pain will plague me. suffocating my whenever i think about him. i dont know what happened. and now nothing is going to happen.

ugh, im just being a whiny little bitch.