Unbelievably Content

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Unbelievably Content

I'm never satisfied with my current state, I guess. First, I was depressed. Then, MCR helped me through it and made me happy. Then I felt kind of alone over here in my recovered suicidal corner. Now, I don't know where I am. I'm stuck, I think. I'm not happy...I'm not sad...I'm just...nothing. I've been looking forward to the little things, and that's been bringing me joy in my life right now. That and hanging out with my friends. The rest of the time, though, I'm just kinda blank. Today in math I was sitting by my best friend but we had to be quiet, and I just sat there and stared at the wall for god knows how long. It was terrible.
This...in between period I'm in right now isn't good. Or maybe it is; I have no idea. All I know is that it's exhausting. I need advice or something.
Or maybe, just maybe...
I'm just crazy.