Crying

If you saw the post I made earlier, and the song, you know that I kinda miss crying. I wanna talk about why.

I don't harm anymore, thank god. Crying is like a form of release. The healthiest release I have left. When I'm balling my eyes out, it's like the few minutes in time I have to be allowed to feel sorry for myself. I'm allowed to mad at everyone else and just sit and be pissed. And then, once I'm out of tears, I can be stronger. I can put my head up and think, "Yeah, that really sucks. But life goes on, I need to live, and goddammit I'm going to." I feel so much better after I cry. And it's a friend; a friend I dearly miss but I know will return soon. I just wish that it didn't come with pain.