Just to make this clear, this is not a suicide post.
Well that's me slipped back into depression. Oh the joys. Why can't I be a normal person and not suffer from depression every month, every week, every day? It's annoying. It's getting so bad I'm having to stay off school because I feel like I'll end up killing myself or something like that if I go back because I wouldn't be able to cope. I promised my family I'd stop and for the last month they think that I have stopped being depression. So fucking wrong.
I feel like I'm worthless, hopeless, horrible, a waste of space, unwanted, lonely, shite, unloved and more.
People at school are just the same. They tell me the same thing. Except they add Emo, depressing cunt, goth, suicidal and things like that. The thing is, is that I'm starting to believe it all. I always have but I'm getting more serious about it.
I'm giving up on bass. I've convinced myself that I'm not good enough and I'm just going to quit it, at least I can't put myself down on that anymore.
I don't even know why I try anymore.
I hate depression.
Why the fuck do I need to suffer from it? Is it not bad enough I've fell out with my mum, dad, step mum and brother?
Obviously not.
I want to get better.
I want help, I'm just not a great one for taking the help.
