Day 4 of depression: I wouldn't call it depression anymore, would I?

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Day 4 of depression: I wouldn't call it depression anymore, would I?

Wednesday 9 May 2012:

I'm feeling much better than I was, and I'm over the moon with that! I smiled today, a lot. It was a meaningful smile at that! I haven't smiled like that in ages and it really did feel great!
Only one thing got me down today, school. It always gets you down but this time I almost started crying. Word got out that I was off school with depression. Fuck. I got called Emo, faggot, suicidal, depressing cunt but in all honesty I really couldn't care less. I'm happy and it's the first time in ages and I'm not letting that hold me back!
One more thing, I met this guy today.... Yes it sounds cheesy but I did! He's amazing, he understood me! No one really understands me. He told me everything would be okay and that if I ever needed anyone he was there for me, it felt amazing when he told me this. I didn't actually meet him today, I knew who he was before and I was secretly crushing on him and today when he spoke to me, it felt amazing! He told me that I shouldnt give a fuck what everyone says, I am my own person and I should be proud of it.
There is one person who had helped me through all of this and is the reason I'm still alive. This girl is amazing and I could trust her with my life! I have never met her but I can tell that she is an amazing person and is beautiful in ever way . It's thanks to this girl that I am still alive and that I am not afraid to keep om living!

So in a short summary, I'm feeling a lot better and had an amazing day except one thing.
I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone.
I am a killjoy who has decided to keep running!
You guys are my proper family and I love you all for it!