I tend to be overly empathetic, and it doesn't help that a lot of my friends are depressed (some clinically so). I understand that being a teenager means you're going to be confused, upset, angry, etc., it just comes with the territory. But some of my friends have actually hurt themselves, and I have have fallen asleep crying because I don't know how to help them and just thinking about how much pain they must be in. I have had my share of low self-esteem, and everything about my personality says I should be severely depressed (just in a quiet way). But whenever I feel worthless or ugly or any of those things, I think about my friends, and how they are way nicer to me than I deserve, and I think about how they have probably felt worse than me, and still smile everyday. I listen to music, let it envelope me, the melody becomes my world. I try random acts of kindness, because everyone needs those, and I write. I write about pain, about hurt, and about hope. I just try to get it all out.
If you are reading this (but really, who would?), and feel the annoyance of being constantly asked what your goals are in life, but you honestly have no freaking idea. Or if you feel like you aren't good enough for anything or anyone, understand that you don't have to know what you want to do. You don't have to be good enough for anyone but yourself. Go out and hug someone, anyone. Tell yourself you're not not as worthless as you think. Because you're not worthless, really, you are a beautiful white pearl in a dark shroud of hormones and lack of self-esteem. You love an amazing band that gives people hope, and your light will never fade.
