So if some of you saw my post the other day it said i was "sad and worried" and in need of a hug and that was because my mum was rushed to hospital again in an ambulance and i know i should be used to it as i've grown up dealing with the fact my mum has many health issues and i'm always in and out of the hospital visiting ever since i can remember but honestly it just gets harder as i get older because i'm more aware of what's going on and could possibly happen. I've had a phobia of death for a while now and when things like this happen my anxiety goes through the roof, i'm trying my best not to get upset even now. I visited my mum today and sh'es a lot better and can come home tomorrow; i even finished the drawing of Jason Issacs she's been asking for and she loves it saying "i'll sleep with that tonight" haha I just get sick with worry of losing her and my dad because they're all i have ( not close with other family members) and without them i don't know what i'd do. I tried talking to my 'best' friend but as usual she's too "busy" even though she doesn't go college or have a job but what matters is the MCRmy and everyone in it cause when i felt down it was you guys who talked to me and gave me virtual hugs when no one else would. As usual it's you guys i will always turn to for everything, i just wish i could meet all of you guys and thank you and the band for everything <3
Thanks to the people who said i could talk to them and gave me those virtual hugs XD
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MCRmy forever, love you all.
