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I've had a bad day. My mum planned a nice day out for us and I tried to keep up the whole super excited act, but it was so difficult that it hurt. Don't get me wrong, I was excited- I mean, we were going whale watching and I love the ocean, but It was one of those days where no matter what happens to you, the depression just shoots it right back down. I think I need to start seeing the psychiatrist again, maybe get back on anti-depressants. I don't want them, they make me fuzzy, but I know if my mum finds out I'm bad again she'll make me take them anyway. Great, sinking back down into the inescapable prison of perpetual anxiety. This time, listening to music isn't even helping.