WISHES

i sit here,
i wish it wasn't true,
i cry some more,
i wish i had you,
i try to hard,
i wish you knew,
crying harder still
i'm gonna show my scars,
i wish i was better now,
i'm looking around,
i realize just how stupid i've been,
i don't need you,
you bring me down,
somehow i still love you,
and tonight i will drown,
drown in my sorrows,
drown in my tears,
i look at the clock now,
i come back down,
the high wears off,
i'm all alone,
slowly dying,
i cry again and say goodbye for the hundredth time!