Ok, i'm gonna go cry now:(

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Ok, i'm gonna go cry now:(

I don't know why... I had an amazing day and got to talk to one of my best friends, but im home with my dad and just.. i wanna cry. He's scaring me, to be honest. He's playing a game and getting mad and throwing controlers and drinking and cussing and its just not fun. And i'm home alone and have no one to talk to and miss this girl who is like a sister to me but is. Also, today i realized how much i want to lose weight so i can actually feel pretty:/ But i cant seem to, and i feel like i never will. And for some reason, because of that, no guy seems to be able to see ME. And this includes this boy, i really love him. I know, im only thirteen, no way can i REALLY love him. But I do, he means the world to me and he just throws me away like im nothing. I feel so empty and hopeless tonight. Now, im gonna go write more of my story, then go outside and scream and sing and cry. I love you guys<3 talk to you all later, i swear<3 i dont know what i would do without you all, you guys are always here for me(: Thank you(:
XOXO
Murderous Music