please help

im still derpressed as hell, and my parents arent making it any better. :( i really dont know what to do, and im starting to think i should cut, like really, whenever i hold something sharp, like a knife or sissors, i feel the need to bring it down on my wrist and just slice the skin open!!!:( these thought are really scaring me :(

i also have volleyball tryouts next week and if i were to cut, what would my friend say if she saw them?

you guys im really starting to scare im myself more and more with these thoughts, i want them gone and out of my head!!!

keep running killjoys!

~Zombie Massacre