why i have to be a stupid bitch??!!

Well, I'm on exam week today (on school, unfortunately) and the guy that I LIKED treated me so bad and broke my heart. I promised to myself never love him. But today when he asked me :what exams we have tomorrow?. I completely get lost in his face, I forgot everything that I was thinking,I started to get struggle to talk him, my hands were cold and the last thing that I wanted was starting to shake. And... I did. I was thinking: answer him! But my girl-friend helped me and I just get like a stupid in front of him.

Please help me! I don't want to live loving somebody that doesn't love me!
I LEARN A LESSON(AND IT'S VERY FUCKING TRUE):

YOU CAN NEVER CONTROL YOUR EMOTIONS