My Chemical History Part Dos

I'm trying to deal with bullying. Lots of kids in my grade HATE me. I'm random, and dark. The popular (like my-daddy-will-buy-me-anything or is-my-hair-ok-? kind of girls) positivly dispise me. Middle school in my district is 6th-8th grade. This is my senior year here and since my 1st day of 6th grade, I've had to deal with bullying. I've been called lesbian, poser, wannabe, and other names. Most of it was becaus I hung out with one guy. His name is Phillip and he's bisexual. He is like me and my friends. He's a Hot Topic-er. My friend Katt (who should be in 8th grade this year but failed 1 year) introduced us when she was in 6th grade with Phillip. Everyday, Phillip was teased for being bisexual. But people just called him gay (meanly). They didn't know he was bi. They thought he would molest any guy in an instant. He is such a sweetheart though! I remember one day, when our parking lots flooded. The buses had to use the high school (next door) parking lot to pick up students. Katt and I walked to our bus and saw Phillip waiting to cross the road to walk home. We ran to each other, and while doing so, kids waiting to get on the bus shouted comments like, "It's Michael Jackson!" and "Eww. Phillip's coming!" Kids treated him like he had a contagious disease. And I was called weird, lesbian, and many other names for hanging with ONE person. Kids are... cruel.

I've gone through some losses lately. Phillip moved to another state and comes down once a month. But he's moving back soon! Yay (take that haters!). I found out that one of my best friends, Andrew moved to another city, but is coming back for the 2nd semester. I miss you Mexican! (Inside joke). Recently, everyone at my bus stop got a letter saying our bus was too crowded and we would have to ride another bus. Sadly, I was leaving behind my friends Niki and Katt to ride the bus driven by a perverted teacher. My new bus has no friends on it. Every day, I sit, squished against the window, surrounded by the laughter of others, and all I want to do is cry because I'm alone.

Really... right now, I'm dealing with life. I'm dealing with name calling, and the loss of friends. All I want, is my life back. I want my friends by my side. Becasue when I'm with them, I don't have a care in the world. I forget the names. I know that friends are what drive me. They keep me going. And through it all, the rise and fall (the bodies in the streets, haha) I've carried on (haha, I'll stop) and realized that I'm friends with people who I know know should have lasted for a season, not a life time.

To my friends:
Leah L. - Thank you for showing me that some friends won't last forever, only a season. I know you'll last a life time.

Phillip C. - I miss you so much. Come back soon. You have a lot of confidence to forget the names they call you. Thanks for showing me I can too.

Katt D. - You have brought out the real me. Thank you! I once lived behind the eyes of a preppy girl, but you set her free.

Niki W. - I love you girl! There is no other like you. Let's just hope you don't die from tripping on tredmills, and one day you get married.

Andrew G. - I miss you! You've been an awesome friend, and it's hard for me to beleive that I once hated you. But Katt changed that. Come back to Spring soon!