Fucking Idiots

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Fucking Idiots

Okay, sorry it's not like me to swear, only when it's really bad and it has been lately.
So I'm at a place in the middle of nowhere to do a ca with only my wifi and only two other girls that are next to nothing like me... well one I am similar too. Anyway, they are both okay.
So It was like eleven at night and we were talking about people in our class. First we did thegirls then the boys. Me being me was very unbiased, but the other two where like "OMD he's fit. But a dickhead" and I was like-"No. Just,no." so now I'm weird for not finding people fit- What?
I was like alright, if you say so then and carried on with my views. I nipped out to the toilets and came back in less than 1 min later and suddenly they get all secretive. As anybody would think I thought they were talking bout me. I didn't really care cause I'm used to it-it happens all the time. So we start talking about the guys in year again and I was like "Yeah that's guy's okay. He doesn't mess around" still they were going on about fit this and fit that.
Cut a long story short I figured out they fancied the same guy and were talking about him behind my back. I wasn't too fussed. In fact I didn't give the remotest piece of shit. I apprently had to tell them a secret of mine. Good thing was one of them only understood what it was... cutting. She tried to talk me out of it and I respect her. The other was blank-faced. But the thing was I had to keep it secret for them because this guy has a girlfriend. So I said I would. And I did.
The next day I wake up go to breakfast and teased them because they were gorming at him from across the room but were both too embarassed to admit it. I took it as a joke. Then at dinner, a couple of hours ago, Someone figured that they liked him. So it becomes my fault. WTF????!!!!!
It wasn't me in fact when people came up to me I defended them as best I could now it's my fault. Bitches.
They won't talk to me now and I don't care but I just wanted to ask whether people think it's my fault or not. I never once mentioned his name though. And I'M the freak for not finding people fit and having no opinion on it. why?
Last time I defend anyone that isn't that close to me. So fucking annoyed with them. And the worst part is, the people thatknow don't blame me, they said it's their fault but I get the blame from them.
So now I'm listening to mychem and believing that I'm anywhere but here... in my imaginary world mainly - #I'm shooting outta this room, cause I sure don't like the company# ... To top it off people in my year are now singing out of tune to a crappy song. And one of them is very immature and giving me the silent treatment like was ever gonna go out with him or stood a chance.
Sorry about how long it is but comment anything you're thinking please, I need support cause I'm feeling crap for sommat I didn't do.
Keep it Ugly
sim x

Hell it feels good to let the steam off your chest and mind.