Feeling Kind Of Numb Lately

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Feeling Kind Of Numb Lately

I don't know, just empty I guess. One of those times where i feel like I am not making a difference in this life at all. Does anyone else feel that way? I just wake up, go to work, come home, and sleep. No real life in between. I try to be there for my kids, but I am gone most of the time and hardly see them. Getting depressed again too so i am up in my room hiding in bed. I do not tell them that they cannot see me, but I make little effort to see them. Am I a horrible mother or what?

Worried about getting my taxes started and back on time. I really need the money in order to get the things for my family and to get people off my back. The kids need clothes and since i had to do all that walking for the last four months that i had no car, I need new clothes too. I should be happy with the weight I lost, but for some reason i am not. I should be happy that my husband finds me attractive, but I am not. I don't honestly know what will make me happy any more. I just drown myself in music and hope that Gerard's words will make everything better, at least for the hour of my life. *sigh* Sorry for such a down post. :(