I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!
Life hasn't changed too much. I don't feel like going in complete detail about recent events, so I'll just briefly mention them.
I hung out with my neighbor's son over the summer (not because I really wanted too, but because he was just there). I HATE him! He called me a nun because I had no intentions of getting married, dating, or even having sex. I'M FUCKING 14, WHAT DO YOU EXPECT?! He's 14 too -_- He wanted to be bassist in a band with me, but I said I already was in unofficially one and that I promised my friend she could be bassist if I ever formed a band .
Speaking about band, I'm no longer in a band. Turned out the band pretty much died over the summer. I never got my friend's number, so we could never get together as a band. He told me a few weeks ago that he gave up on the idea of forming a band. I haven't...
Started my sophomore year of high school on June 1st. Schedule: Chemistry, Advanced English, Advanced Algebra 2. Spanish for Spanish Speakers 2, Advanced Orchestra (I've seen more advanced orchestras), AP Psychology, and AP European History. What the HELL was I thinking?
Got into creepypastas and Marble Hornets. Slenderman, Eyeless Jack, Jeff the Killer FTW!!!! I love other creepypastas too :3
Went to Knott's Scary Farm for the first time for my friends 16th Birthday. BEST DAY EVER!!! Went on rides I never thought I'd had the guts to go on, went in a ton of mazes, ate funnel cake, and laughed a lot :)
Been through some high and lows in life. I get depressed thinking about my future still, turns out my mom won't be having her last immigration court date this year, and I've learned adults can be quite immature.
Planning Halloween already. I wanted to dress up as Jeff the Killer, but my mom said no :( I'm going to try to convince her to let me dress up as him though.
Mom called me a boy Saturday. She says I dress to much like a guy. Well it's better than being a slut, no? I like band tees that are slightly too large and skinny jeans. I don't like wearing make-up unless it's for a costume. I don't like dresses or skirts (most of the time). Deal with it.
PSAT coming up soon. I haven't even started studying. I'm screwed.
My guy friend (and only friend I'm close to at my school) admitted his love for me yesterday. I'm crushed by it. He says he had a crush on me since 2nd semester last year. HOW?! I just met him then, and he says he "loves" me?! I saw it coming. My other guy friend told me about it over the summer. I knew. He was right. But still! I'm glad he was honest and what-not, but in the end I was the one who got hurt, not him. I don't feel that way about him or ANY guy. Right now, my thoughts are focused on getting school over with and improving my music skills. He's a killjoy. One killjoy friend, is that so much to ask for?! It was so awkward! So awkward that I felt like running away from where we hang out during lunch bursting into tears! Our friendship will always be awkward now. What does he seeing me? I'm not pretty. I'm fucking morbid. My head's always in the clouds, so how could I be committed to a relationship? I'm the best person in the world. I'm not single. Music is my boyfriend. When we go on dates, we're in my room having a practice session.
First orchestra concert of the year is Friday. WHOO!!!
I just want music, a supporting family, and a group of friends that I can be a derp around.
Been drawing lately. I suck at it, but I'm proud of my doodles. i drew a chibi Andy Biersack for my friend's B-Day card. She loved it :3 I'm working on a Jeff the Killer doodle. Been doodling myself as Masky and what I would look like if Jeff made me "beautiful" like him. Yup.
Had class discussion about suicide in my English class on Monday. Great way to start the week, no? -_- I almost cried when I heard a girl I sat next to during the first week of school used to be suicidal and when I remembered that my friend told our English class last year that he once tried to commit suicide (before I met him).
I think the best thing for me at the moment is to just keep daydreaming, practice my lovely instruments, and come up with fanfic ideas. Yeah, that's the life.
