i don't even want to thnk about this word right now. its a nightmare that word... everyday gets worse and worse. but aside frm all of the books, looks, and work that comes along with it, i think the worst feeling is feeling like your in your own world, like its you against the world. to be honest im tired of making everything a competition, A, B, and Cs are just letters. anyone can pass a class and not be good at it. its not true, its just memorization. theres no pont to anything. highschool is just a prison for teens. its like everyone thinks they are all that like they own everythng and everyone. every teacher has the same job, get a book and teach what the book says, its always something out of a book. i dont care about the book, tell me what you know. and then the sports where you have your dad who is all excited to see you play well in football games and expects you to wrestle. to have him tell you you will be this or that like he expects it just adds on more of the pressure. maybe i don't want to play a careless game while the world is in pain. then theres the homework after a long practice that you never want to do, yet if you dont do it, you wont understand the next day of class, because apparently the teacher cant teach it well enough the first time. and then you've got the weekends where you look on twitter and facebook just to see that everyone is having so much fun while you stay home because your grounded for having a C and you stress over everything but dont do a thing to help yourself lower the stress level, so it just adds more stress. and the the rumors you hear about your girlfriend and the terrible things she has done behind your back, and the backstabbing, the dramma, the jealousy, heartbreak. its everything that comes along with one word. rumors you hear about someone else, the nice girl becomes a slut. the partiers have yet another story about how cool it was to not remeber what the hell happened because the were "so wasted". and just as you find a way to put all of the stress away, you soon realize its sunday night, and tomorrow moring youll start the process over and over again.
